Today was.... eventful.

I'm sore over a lot of things.

I gotta apologise to all my girlfriends and sweethearts fr putting up with me.

Fatiha, thanks for putting up with me, Unni. I was insuch a bad mood but never once you

complained about me being whiney. I love you.

Shereena, thanks for being by my side too when I was down. Thanks for being very quiet and reserved when I needed people to just stop asking me to not be moody. I really owe you one.

Hashy, thanks dear, for trying to put a smile on my face earlier this morning. I'm really

greatful for the concern that you showed me.

Nadia, Thanks for being by my side. You're a great friend. Thanks for keeping quiet when the

others was fretting about me being very sulky and down just now. I really needed one.

Iqah, Thanks or making me feel better too. You tried to put a smile on my face by asking me to roam around school. You're such a sweetheart.

Sofia, thanks for being just a sweetheart. Thank you for the advises that you gave me

earlier on. It made me see both sides of the situation and lighten my spirits

a lot.

Last of all, I wanna thank Amirah Imran, Arina and Filzah for being very patient with me today.

I'm sorry if I gave you all the cold shoulder treatment. It's just that a lot

of things have been happening right now that i'm on an emotional roller coaster.

It's just that right now, I think that when it's council, I'll feel awkward around you guys.

You guys are more superior than me. Things change and people change.

Biahne.

I don't know if things will turn for the better in the future. I'm really sorry. I've talked to you

guys personally and I hope you know how I really feel. People see you as you all are in the limelight. I don't want to be thepatheticore loser waiting by the curtains. It's the end of the line

for me. Finish it for me alright? If time permits, I'll wait for you at the finishing line. You guys are big now. People will soon recognise you.

Things have yet to settle down betweenme and my Mum. I really dunnoe what to do to appease her and she is sprouting all sorts of nonsense and jumping to conclusions.

I just hope that she'll realise what the truth really is like. She saying crap that doesn't even exits.

I cried myself to sleep yesterday just thinking about all these things. Girls, I'm so sorry things

have to turn out this way. It's out of my control too. Right now, my life is in a whole mess and I

just can't seem to fit the pieces together. You guys probably don't know what I'm really

going through. Right now, let me be down for the moment. It's my only source of

solace that I have left. You guys see me being happy and everything but if you really

want to know. It's all just a mask to hide how I really feel. Sometimes, some things are just

meant to be kept low-key and secret. When I've put myself and my life back together, I'll tell

you okay. Right now, things are just too complicated for me to confide in you guys.

Let nature take it's course and let God do His job. Insyallah, I'll return to my normal self.

-A.